I was hanging out in my garden just observing nature as I have been watering and waiting, weeding and contemplating - what was that, what will come up here, all the while tracking the evolution of each and every plant in the garden.
It takes me back to a time when my father and I would sow and reap season after season when we lived on acreage while I was growing up. My father would spend hours tending to his garden, and shared with me many a tip on this and that. These included advice on watering, distances between plants, uprooting, nurture and readiness. He cared for his vegetables and had a genuine and intimate interest and connection with them.
What I couldn't intellectualise as a child, though, was why some plants would grow, and others wouldn't. It didn't matter how much my dad explained to me the many reasons why this can happen, I failed to completely understand. I would ponder over why the tiny vegetable that had crinkled at infancy did so right next door to its much more established and stronger neighbour.
And then today, finally, I understood. Like really understood. The kind of understanding you feel in all parts of you.
Today I stood looking down amongst the beautiful leaves and it suddenly struck me: sometimes the environment just isn't right for growth. Sometimes the individual, not the group, or the species, or the type even, but the individual just is not rooted in the place it needs to be in order to rise up and grow. That the light hasn't reached the leaves in the way it needed to, even though the plant next door is robust and happy.
And I realised that life can be like this.
Sometimes the environment we are in isn't ideal for our individual growth. It doesn't turn us on in the way it should. Perhaps the sun doesn't shine on our face as much as it needs to for us to have those bright flashes of insight that prompt change and subsequently, growth. Sometimes the company we are surrounded by digs in and takes over disabling us from fully expressing ourselves. Sometimes it takes a while for us to recognise that this place just isn't the one we needed to be in right now.
And so we move on.
We move on to a place where the conditions are right for us.
One where our roots are able to spread out, to dig deep and be fully supported. One where we can reach up towards the sky without any fear or doubt that this is the direction to be going in. One where arms reach out as an extension of the heart and connect all the things and people needed to create a tribe that ripples outwards into the world.
Have faith my friends, the journey of growth is lifelong and never ends.
You always have time to change your environment if it isn't supporting you. To remove some weeds that are growing in your way. To become aware of where the light needs to shine. To discover the right place for you to be, in this very moment.
KATE PIPPOS is a mother, lover, yoga instructor, spiritual growth story teller, poet, creator and birth Coach. She lives in Sydney with her ever evolving young family, discovering inspiration in the whisperings of waves that flow through her mind daily. Her mission in life is to cultivate and radiate inner peace, wisdom and compassion so that she can be an inspiration to her children and help build an even more beautiful world. She looks forward to sharing her stories with you, here, there or somewhere, but mostly in the space between our hearts. Follow her here: lovespirityoga.blogspot.com.